Old notes

I found this note when I was cleaning my room :
"I hold my tears as I heard you said, "No, it wasn't me. Sorry."
I didn't know what happened to me. I felt like my heartbeat was stopped. I felt like the air were heavier than it was. Slowly I stepped backward. I felt like I almost fainted. I walked away and sat on the floor. I hold my tears and the air around me got hotter. Finally I cried, without any noise. My tears just fell down like the rain outside the building.
Why did I cried? I knew ** would said that. Then, why did I cried? Maybe I was just expecting too much from ***. I knew that I must be patient and wait until the time...

Ganbatte, Helsa!

I know it, I feel it, and I want to keep it.
But if ** don't,
Will it last long?
I don't care. :)
Be strong, keep your faith and
LET IT ALL FLOW :D"
Maybe that was a thorn diary? I don't remember I ever wrote them (‾˛‾")