Cruel

Time is cruel.
It keeps on ticking without any understanding.
Sun has gone and the moon has come.
The shadow slowly perish to unexistence.
The farewell that can't be told evaporate into the thin air.
How cruel of them to say that?
How cruel of them to do that?
How cruel of me... To lock you inside...
As the time continues ticking, I realize that what I want to do is protecting my other ones,
My precious other ones.

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Yay~ Finally a new header!

The girl is one of my three main persona : Mizuki Aiko
Aiko is my Yandere side, who often comes out when I'm angry or upset. She always being sarcastic but that's her way to defend herself. She is... Well, selfish and hard-headed. And you know yanderes... We shouldn't talk abou it, lol

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My Deviantart!

I Finally update my DA! After such a looooong time ....
It feels amazing! XD

here's my DA

It Hurts!

OMG
I wonder why it still feels hurt until now...
Oh god why?? (╥﹏╥)

One Thing I just Realize...

Aku adalah orang yang sangat keras kepala...

Kenyataan yang Menyakitkan

"Aku tak bisa percaya pada siapapun lagi."

aku pun juga.

... Dunia. Itulah dunia untuk kita.
Sangat nista dan kejam.
Terus berjalan seiring dengan waktu yang tak hentinya berdetik.
Tanpa peduli tentang diri kita,
Tanpa peduli dengan luka di masa lalu,
Tanpa beduli betapa hancur perasaan kita, 

diterkam oleh harimau-harimau ganas di tengah hutan belantara.

Rantai itu terus menghantui,
Bayangan itu terus mengikuti.
kemana aku harus membuangnya?
bagaimana agar aku bisa membuangnya?

Tidak ada.
Tak akan bisa lepas, sejauh apapun kita melempar.

Lalu apa?
Perlukah kita tetap bersemayam di sana?
Membusuk bersama borok yang sudah menghitam?

Dunia ini kejam dan nista.
Hanya arah pandangan kita yang bisa kita ubah.
Ke atas. Ke langit.
Luas dan berbintang, penuh dengan harapan.

Jika kau muak dengan dunia,
Lihatlah ke arah awan.
Begitu putih dan lembut.
Padahal sudah berapa kali ia menangis?
Sudah berapa kali ia menghujam bumi?
Namun saat langit membiru, ia datang menghias langit dengan panorama penuh makna.
Lembut... Dan begitu suci...

Itulah dunia kawan, kejam dan nista.
Namun jika aku menjadi dirimu, aku tak akan membiarkan diriku menjadi senista dunia ini.
Aku akan membiarkan cahaya menerpaku, tak peduli besarnya bayangan yang terbentuk di ujung jasadku....

Snow Thaw Indonesian sub

Don't make me feel the same feeling once again... But even if you do, then... :okayface:

The Words You Uttered

False Alarm?

....

Being a hopeful fool hurts, you know? (｡◕‿◕｡)

BRING ME BACK TO LIFEEEEEE

Oh well look at this blog... Dead.
And now I decided to bring it back to lifeee! XD

There's Aiko~ One of my persona :3

Old notes

I found this note when I was cleaning my room :
"I hold my tears as I heard you said, "No, it wasn't me. Sorry."
I didn't know what happened to me. I felt like my heartbeat was stopped. I felt like the air were heavier than it was. Slowly I stepped backward. I felt like I almost fainted. I walked away and sat on the floor. I hold my tears and the air around me got hotter. Finally I cried, without any noise. My tears just fell down like the rain outside the building.
Why did I cried? I knew ** would said that. Then, why did I cried? Maybe I was just expecting too much from ***. I knew that I must be patient and wait until the time...

Ganbatte, Helsa!

I know it, I feel it, and I want to keep it.
But if ** don't,
Will it last long?
I don't care. :)
Be strong, keep your faith and
LET IT ALL FLOW :D"
Maybe that was a thorn diary? I don't remember I ever wrote them (‾˛‾")

Painfut, yet sweet

whenever hatred fills my heart,
I recall those fragments.
Those flying butterflies inside my stomach.
Secretly wishing for the time to bring them back.
But, hatred.
Confused between hatred and dissappointment.
Overwhelmed in confusion,
The pain hurts even more.
Which way should I step on?

Should I defend?
Then tell me why? How?
I realize that I always hold my breath as I try to,
The pain even hurts more.
Suffocating in despair,
Feeling miserable that time couldn't flow back.
The pain even hurts more,
One step on getting further from me, and I'll dissappear.

Should I retreat?
Then tell me why? How?
Turning my back from those shadows,
Facing those gray mist.
The pain even hurts more,
As the dream became sweeter.
Alluring me to stand again.
And fall once more.
Craving another scar that'll lead me to the ocean of tears.

Or should I attack?
Then tell me why? How?
I have nothing.
Only those fake smile, fake laugh,
When those shadows appeared before my eyes.
The pain hurts even more,
As I realize it was pointless.
Those blank expression,
Those tremor they made,
I feel vulnerable.

The pain hurts even more,
When you gave me THAT LOOK ON YOUR FACE! Argh!

Perbincangan Teknologi Masa Kini

Perbincangan Teknologi Masa Kini

WIKIPEDIA : Aku tau semuanya.
FACEBOOK : Aku kenal dengan semua orang.
GOOGLE : Aku punya semuanya.
MOZILA : Tanpa aku kalian tidak bisa di akses.
EXPLORER : Kan gue masih ada.
MOZILA : Apaan sih lo, ganggu acara orang aja!
OPERA: Lo sih, ngaku-ngaku cuma ada lo sendiri!
INTERNET : Udah-udah! Jangan banyak bacot lo semua, kalo gak ada gue kalian semua gak bakalan ada!
FACEBOOK : Huuu, yang paling sering dikunjungin kan gue, jadi gue yang terbaik.
YAHOO : Facebook, Inget, tanpa gue lo gak bisa buat Email!
GOOGLE : Yahoo, Gue juga bisa buat Email.
INTERNET : zzz... udah tau gue yg paling hebat :P
KOMPUTER : Gua Paling Dewa di sini.
PLN : Bacot lo semua! Gua matiin nih listriknya!...

*copas dari salah satu FP

Run Devil Run - Narsis

Narsis... Yaah... Enjoy...

Hypnotizing.

I'm not feeling like myself... I don't feel like doing anything...
I am drown in the sea of our fantasy.
As you whispers those words,
My body is trembling.
Keep chanting on my ears.
Keep singing to my soul.
Just let me drown deeper.
Then I could wake up to reality...

The wrong step you've made

waiting for you to change
Would it take an eternity
Or would it take just a blink?
What I trust is, you will change
At sometime not now

A place for you to metamorph
Would it be far far away from me
Or would it be just right by my side?
What I believe is, you will metamorph
At someplace not here

Why not now?
Why not here?
Those questions aren't mine to answer.
They are yours.

This isn't your time,
This isn't your place.
But one day, somewhere,
You will realize

That you've made a wrong step,
Checkmate ;)